PrOm NiGhT

okay start with the good part. I rushed during afternoon to get a shirt...$75. Then went to prom with a overly-small sized shoes, by the time i reach there the my heel aready bleeding...open wound. I hid my pain throughout, not easy...T.T
I saw Amos and was happy he was dressed well, dam cool XD. In the ballroom, I sat beside Zheng Yang and Fu En. Zheng Yang kept finding fault with me and hitting my head[he was playing and I dun mind] LOLS. Then there was the couple dance, remembered clearly Jia Qi and Qi Hua won. My class was seriously WTF, they chosen me and Li Kiong...I would have danced if they get a REAL GIRL! But nvm, it was real fun and funny. We ate and talk and stuff then. Then lucky draw and magic tricks. Near the end, everyone danced together, more lik jumping hahax. Imagine me jumping with a open wound in the heel, bleeding, cool huh?
My pain eased upon seeing 'her'.
I wanted to talk to her, but i can't bring myself to...
At final moment, just as i almost go all out, i saw Winston and talked to him about it, he meant I dun stand a chance...
So i gave up and took a taxi home, every second I could feel my heart shrinking and drowning with sorrow. Its only my fault that I screwed things up...if only i have been a better person since sec 1, things would have been a breeze. But oh well, throught failure we learn. No point grumbling and regret, its time to get out of my fantasy dreams and set things right!

HoPe AnD FaTe In ThE HaNdS Of ThE MiGhTy GoD

Its been like centuries since i blogged. Main reason is because I am in the midst of my most important exams in life so far, the O levels. I expecting english to get B3 and maths to be A2...
But I prayed for my maths for a A1 cause it will really make life easier for me as that means I need to scored A1 for D&T, A1 for combined humanities and A2 for either chinese or science. This is mainly because I planning to go to TP, for psychology course which needs L1R4 to be 8 points only!!! well, thats one of the most difficult course to enter for any poly. Benjamin persuaided me to go to a JC, but I dun like the idea of JC. Firstly, I have to cut my hair! NO WAY! Secondly, still have to wear a UNIFORM! NO WAY! Lastly, the subjects are going to be boring and limited. Furthermore, I dropped amath, so I will have a real disadvantage if i go JC.

Actually there is another alternative, I can go to NP for psychology & community services which need L1R4 to be 10. BUT IF ALL ELSE FAIL, then I will probably take benjamin's advice and go JC. God bless me!

i am sorry

it was all my fault for all the mistakes i made. They fell out...we all were sad. For me, my life is screwed, there is no reason for me to live anymore, i feel like dieing...this song will tell u how i feel...[a little too not over you]. here it goes.

"It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best I know it is
but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you"

haiz

okay, i apologize for not updating everyday because i am busy studying. i got my chinese results 2 days ago and got B4, sucks cos i kno i screwed up paper 1 and oral, but i still got merit for my oral which in fact i done it so badly i thought i failed. Hey come on man, i sleep in every chinese lessons even though i in the second best chinese band. So basically i screwed up 'o' level chinese and is retaking XD, wow 'great', now i got more time to waste studying chinese, WOOHOO[sacastic].
i had 'o' level eng oral today and i did above my usual but not the best. My mind just went blank facing the 2 female examiners...OMG DIE T_T.

sudden attack

i bought A-cash card for the first time in my life. i was provoked by those assholes in SA using trgs and other cash items to bully others, so i bought it. i now got trg 21, ak black, gurhka C and the machine gun pistol, wei long u r so dead hahaha.
i eating instant noodle now. The slice of cheese i added to it made the whole thing dilute, eewww, but still yummy anyway haha XD

pakour

i saw barrel and gate vault on yourtube, awsome!!!
i going to try in school tmr, pray for me that i dun break any bones k? okay maybe not that serious, i can do monkey, side or regular, kash, lazy, reverse, and turn vault. i still working on dash and kong vault. If i got time, i may also try speed and thief vault.

monday holiday

Today morning i woke up at about 11am. My science tutor reached my house door then i told him to go home lmao, cos i dun feel lik having tution, moody morning, haiz.
Then about 2.25pm i reached AMK mrt station to meet up with dl and cheryl. But they said they gona be late, so i went cheers to buy sweet. Lol i very dumb, i bought the sweet then talk on the phone with dl until i forgot take the sweet.....
I only realised that when i in the AMK hub waiting for dl at the bus drop off point. Then she followed me go take the sweet XD
Then we both went to the AMK hub underground cheers and wait for cheryl. Miss princess cheryl took the wrong train and her train stopped halfway a while, making us wait until 3pm+...
Then we took mrt to Bishan and went to the library.
OMG, i saw 2 of my school mates...tmr sure got rumour...
We walked a bit then we went J8 and i bought ice blended green apple, yummy! XD
dl brought her salad and drink[prepared by dl's mother]
After eating, we continue walking in J8 and do some window shopping.
At about 5.30pm, dl decided to go home due to limits by her mother. So i followed her to AMK hub again...=.=
And then guess wat? Cheng Chuan And Bob and 2 other girls from our school caught us!!! tmr 100% got rumour, i am screwed...but they my friends so should be okay rite?[i not too sure abt tat lol]
So bascially we shopped a while more and...OH YA
lol okay this is funny, dl tried to either kick me or cheryl, and ended up her slipper spolit[the part where placed between your first toe and second came off lol, dun tell me u duno]
Well, poor dl has to hop and jump and slide. But she gained a weapon, she can use her slipper to wack me and cheryl, but she only managed to hit cheryl lol XD. Lastly, dl and cheryl took a bus at AMK hub home and i also went home.
The whole day we were being childish and reprimanded by public people, but it was fun XD

hibenate

'Yawn'...
i had conversation with dl and cheryl from yesterday 11pm+ to 2am+. Then i slept from like 2am+ to 4pm+ today. This is the result of not sleeping well for more than 2 weeks...
I could have sleep more but was woken up by the television. i tried to go back to sleep but i cannot help but keep thinking of 'her', so i failed to get back to sleep...
i think i am addicted to the song 'the reason' by hoobastank, which was also the first song i hear after i woke up, the lyrics and song really applies to how i felt about 'her', the reason is 'her'.

another day on earth

Today i had tution at 9 am. Actually 9.45am because be was late and i scolded him 'f u', moody on mornings...and it ended at 12.20pm.
Then i went out with dl and cheryl at bishan park at 4pm. dl has a dog and we all went for a stroll and played swing. Then we went 'bishan park 2' and the 'dog area'. 'The dog area' has many different dogs, i remembered got many cute che wawa, reminds me of qi hua lol. At about 6pm we started walking back[i think i saw pei qi on the way and she saw me, gg man]. Dl then splash water at cheryl for fun, the water made her pink belt obvious because she wearing white shirt lmao. Then cheryl buy a bottle of water saying she wants to drink, but we all knew what it was for...
And it came true, cheryl tried to splash water and dl but in the end both got splashed haha. Then something happened...and i not going to say it, sorry.
Then dl went home and i see cheryl home. Lastly, i went home too and bought ice blended green apple on the way[super delicious, yummy XD]

national day

National day in sch was 'okay', if u know what i mean haha XD. Half of my time in the school hall i was looking at 'her', haiz. Woo Young had a hard time wearing the mask lol, because it was painted with marker and smells terrible and contain alcohol lol, thats why he a bit high, jk lol. After school i went to play Lan at rad with Qi Hua, Yong Rong, ck, cc, shaun, bob[hong wei], shao qin, kang wei and lup seng. Not to boost but i won all the matches and the only to triple kill is me XD though i never played dota for months. then we went hav lunch at the nearest coffee shop because they low on cash for KFC.
Later i, bob, shuan, ck, and cc went meet up with Phaedra, , darren , and 2 duno wat name to play basketball. Me, ck, shaun, cc and bob one team, the rest another. To my surpirse, i managed to score about 5+ shots lol and my team won because we are all taller than them lol, bully sia. Then i went home, thats all XD.

pmpt[personal motivation physical training]

now i got sort of 6 pacs...i can start on my arms and legs. at least 50 up down, 450 sit up, 20 push up of chest type and shoulder type. Then spam 5kg dumb bells on each hands until really cannot take it. I wanted to do pull ups too but too bad my pull up bar at home is damaged...sadded. Anyway, i know the amount stated above is very little, and so i will increase everyday and I hope I can do dash and king kong vault, wall flip and palm spin by this month. its gona be a tough month, but i am looking forward to the rewards!

chem in sch

Chem is fun today because it is all pratical and have 2 sessions, morning and after sch. The experiments are interesting easy, so i have much time to mix around chemicals. I remembered Jing Xiang mixed the chemicals and then boil them lol, till the solution erupted from the test tube, lucky mrs leong never noticed. But later, he 'barbarcue' the test tube holder and was caught by mrs leong, Edwin said Jing Xiang something which make Jing Xiang point middle finger at Edwin. Mrs leong saw it and commented that he has a long middle finger lmao, and ask jx to do 20 push ups but in the end never do cos mrs leong forgotten.
After sch there is chem again, WOOHOO!~
More people broke either test tubes and beakers than the morning sessions lol, lucky no one got hurt. Oh ya, Christabel had the acid solution[hot cos boiling] spilled on her hand, her hand was red and she rinsed it under running tap. thats all that is interesting today XD.

night cat

I had lost count of how many days i had not sleeped, maybe 2 hours yesterday and not counting the ones in class haha XD. I feel so tired, but i think i just got addicted to being a night cat lol! maybe i should go sleep now? About 2 hours left, i bet it will be harder to wake up later than to just dun sleep at all.
Well, i will start choining my D&T tmr, cannot let Mei Qi thrash me lol :P

new beginning

Today is just quite normal, I think? Class sucks as usual of course, expecially amath and emath.
I went for detention after this lesson at about 5pm. i ate biscuits while having detention, I will dare to use my ear piece but forgot to bring, sadded.
Soon, Wen Jie came and mrs sidhu made him do 20 push ups. I wonder why at first, then i found out when mrs sidhu said out loud to mr prem and om han...
Wen Jie played on the staircase with his junior and was caught by school attendant, the black old women[no offence]. Then om han lectured them with his bones breaking logic, i feel like telling om han to be careful when walking because old people like him walk also can fall down and die.
Wen Jie obviously was not really affected by it, just irritated, but who cares.
So he and his junior sat down beside me writing reflection, LOL obi, okay thats evil, i should say i felt sorry for them.
Then, Wen Jie and I went to the bus stop. I saw Xuan Ming and 1 sec 2 girl, duno name but i saw her many times before, good luck for them. i reached home and hav tution at 8pm till 10pm, boring...okay thats all.