life goes on

yesterday kinnda fk up....i think i marked myself down in the peer appersal...then the teacher needed to talk to me..i just said the truth...and she ...............................

enough abt that....today no mood go sch cos cds sucks...
thats all :D

darkness in eternity

i know u will never get to see this....but u will when i am gone from this world...this life isn't worth living..for me to watch u leave, its living hell, good bye..

I haven and will not give u up, i just duno wat else to say to u...cos the things i told u, hit me back like a boomerang, this is not your fault in the first place, its me who doesn't know how to care abt u, duno how to love u, duno how to stop hurting u....

a tear drop wun make a difference, a thousand sorries wun bring u back, a million regrets wun change the past....a trillion prayers wun change your mind....

all the best to you, i will never forget u....

Down to btm of no return

Today i woke up rather late, bby never reply...so we mapled a bit and i went to bath. And then we went go nicoll highway and went to meet da sao. Then boss went to bought the bus ticket back to msia.

While waiting, we went to grab a bite...lazy to write wat i ate...i really no mood to blog right now...i will post next time...

boss + da sao + majestic

yesterday boss came to sg ard 2pm, so romeo called me and told me go bugis....zzz in the sleeping mood

then he decided that steamboat would be too hot, so i suggest seoul garden or sakura...i missed sg's soup...

but we decided sakura cos we haven been there tgt..i checked the address and price and smsed romeo the details....zzh3r0zz went to fetch romeo and boss and da sao, then come my house fetch me...meanwhile i was waiting, i stare at my phone waiting for a miracle to happen...

they arrived at my block, hero looked like a gangster, a bit. romeo and hero started smoking, i pat boss on the back, we had a short chat and i saw da sao....look like in her thirties. So we went in the car and head off to sakura

we chatted abt random stuffs, but da sao is obviously trying to find a topic to talk to boss. Boss seems kinda dissapointed...cos of da sao looks i think...which is really saddening cos they had been tgt for 3 years + in maple..my heart sank cos i was reminded of bby...and then we reached sakura but it isn't open yet, need 5.30. bmagen haven arrived...then it opened, and bmagen arrived later than expected, he look like he is 15 while others disagree, he is 20+ btw. We go on to agree tht romeo looked like a uncle, everyone agrees rofl.

then we went for movie at 9.30 at causeway point...the viral point. sad tht jay have to die, why is it jay? romeo fell asleep and is snoring pretty loud, the ppl behind laugh out loud, fkers.
so i woke romeo up...

after movie boss came my house for the night, he snores very loud, so i went to my parents room to sleep...the rest post next time

fml

sorry for the emo posts....cos there is no other way to describe, if u know me and if i am smiling now...u would know i am faking it.

yesterday was hell of a day yeah cos...i got an sms at 11am or so that there is a group meeting at 11am....i cant teleport u know...but i know yesterday they had a meeting and i wasn't there, probably i was the only one not knowing abt the 11 meeting

but yeah second sms i got at 12+ was 'where the fuck are you' ...
i bathed and rushed down...better late than never...i memorize my part for the presentation...and of yeah we were wearing formal and my shirt and pants are pretty loose....
HOW LOOSE? my underwear literally fall off my butt...my pants held on to it, thx god?

well, i loss ard 10 kg every since last year....drastic effect from maple...

Then i realised i haven eaten anything and its 3pm...so we went for a quite bite, i bought a bun only and 3 dim sum watever its spelled.

the presentation was okay, except that my group accidentally skipped my part in the role play, shafiq apologized so its okay :D the peer apraiser part....my heart sank cos i know i haven done anything for the group, i sucks and i know it, sorry guys...

i went home regretted and missing u bby...glad u replied me anyway

nothing without u

i am desperate for your voice, desperate for your hold, desperate for u to treat me the way u used to....i would sacrifice anything..
i cant eat....i cant sleep....i dw to go to sch....i barely breathe these days

just stay with me, cos bby i will not live to see another day without you...

glad that u finally said a word to me today, i will not give up....goodnight bby, sweet dreams

too late for regrets

Dam my ob project....i screwed it zzz. wat a week, i wish wei lun and alastair are in my class, they are like extremely good to me...in terms of personal and adcademic issues, only thing is that wei lun very sacastic -.- god knows why he defer when he got so much potential zzz. If he needed money i could have lent him, wats his prob, his gpa is far better than mine.

bby is still ignoring me, maybe its too late...but i will not give up, cos giving her up is as good as giving my life up.

so much to do today...i am suppose to xfer 270 to drew's account, then take taxi to bukit tima to sell my earring for 110, then visit godma for new year. But i am lazy so....i might not go >< see how...which probably means slack at home o.o

Regrets and sorrows

sorry wun change anything but thats all i can say for wat i did. Loving you is something i always do the person in my heart is irreplaceable, i will never allow u to walk out...cos if u do, i am nothing..
i cant afford to have you walking out of my life, ur my everything..

now i know why

No words to express how i feel...i wonder why must i know wats wrong when its too late.
so the reasons u are upset are...
1. I was upset u going to meet that guy that likes u, when i ownself met von....
2. I broke up the second time with u cos your phone ran out of batt and 'thought' that u went to meet him....
3. I broke up with u the first time cos u sat with lylyq while i side alicia and dapy
4. I trained hero and ignore u for 5 days, maybe more, promised to pei u but i didn't
5. I was behaving very close with nuer, like saying ily to her

the reason i am upset....
1. U told me everything is okay, and nothing happen, but u cant let go wat had happened
2. U smsed me 1/2 words only, stopped smsing me when u wake up, ignores me a lot
3. I saw your blog and some content really made me feels that ur hiding things from me
4. It sucks to feel that u no longer love me

all i can say is, i am really sorry bby for not knowing how u feel....i shouldn't have neglected u and sometimes i am being unreasonable like stopping u from meeting your friend, but...i am just afraid to lose u, then why did i break with u...its cos i thought it might make u treasure me again but it didn't.

my love towards you never stopped, i will prove to u by actions from now on...
tmr will be my quitting sales....for a start..

Revived

Noticed its been quite some time since i last blogged. I decided to revive it cos i realised i missed out so much in life which i probably would have forgotten by now...so instead of living each day as it is, i decided to cont this blog.

I woke up at 10 and i took a look at my hp, she didn't sms me...a bit dissapointed that its my cousin instead. My phone's clock is still 30mins fast ahead, lazy to change it, the sms' time i received is actually more accurate, wtf. Then i got up, not cos of maple thank god, cos of the sudden stomach ach....glad we smsed :D

Duno why u bad mood today, and keep busy nowadays, but i hope its not cos u stopped loving me, its driving me crazy thinking that u will be gone....

ay called me today, i know yesterday was our anniversary...as in ex anniversary. She seems really upset for not giving a shit abt it, but wat am i suppose to do, some things are just over and cannot be the same anymore...

maple isn't fun anymore, i saw my eqs and asked myeslf, wtf i spend 3k on it only to realised...it doesn't matter if ur pro or noob, maple is still boring...