nothing without u

i am desperate for your voice, desperate for your hold, desperate for u to treat me the way u used to....i would sacrifice anything..
i cant eat....i cant sleep....i dw to go to sch....i barely breathe these days

just stay with me, cos bby i will not live to see another day without you...

glad that u finally said a word to me today, i will not give up....goodnight bby, sweet dreams

too late for regrets

Dam my ob project....i screwed it zzz. wat a week, i wish wei lun and alastair are in my class, they are like extremely good to me...in terms of personal and adcademic issues, only thing is that wei lun very sacastic -.- god knows why he defer when he got so much potential zzz. If he needed money i could have lent him, wats his prob, his gpa is far better than mine.

bby is still ignoring me, maybe its too late...but i will not give up, cos giving her up is as good as giving my life up.

so much to do today...i am suppose to xfer 270 to drew's account, then take taxi to bukit tima to sell my earring for 110, then visit godma for new year. But i am lazy so....i might not go >< see how...which probably means slack at home o.o

Regrets and sorrows

sorry wun change anything but thats all i can say for wat i did. Loving you is something i always do the person in my heart is irreplaceable, i will never allow u to walk out...cos if u do, i am nothing..
i cant afford to have you walking out of my life, ur my everything..

now i know why

No words to express how i feel...i wonder why must i know wats wrong when its too late.
so the reasons u are upset are...
1. I was upset u going to meet that guy that likes u, when i ownself met von....
2. I broke up the second time with u cos your phone ran out of batt and 'thought' that u went to meet him....
3. I broke up with u the first time cos u sat with lylyq while i side alicia and dapy
4. I trained hero and ignore u for 5 days, maybe more, promised to pei u but i didn't
5. I was behaving very close with nuer, like saying ily to her

the reason i am upset....
1. U told me everything is okay, and nothing happen, but u cant let go wat had happened
2. U smsed me 1/2 words only, stopped smsing me when u wake up, ignores me a lot
3. I saw your blog and some content really made me feels that ur hiding things from me
4. It sucks to feel that u no longer love me

all i can say is, i am really sorry bby for not knowing how u feel....i shouldn't have neglected u and sometimes i am being unreasonable like stopping u from meeting your friend, but...i am just afraid to lose u, then why did i break with u...its cos i thought it might make u treasure me again but it didn't.

my love towards you never stopped, i will prove to u by actions from now on...
tmr will be my quitting sales....for a start..

Revived

Noticed its been quite some time since i last blogged. I decided to revive it cos i realised i missed out so much in life which i probably would have forgotten by now...so instead of living each day as it is, i decided to cont this blog.

I woke up at 10 and i took a look at my hp, she didn't sms me...a bit dissapointed that its my cousin instead. My phone's clock is still 30mins fast ahead, lazy to change it, the sms' time i received is actually more accurate, wtf. Then i got up, not cos of maple thank god, cos of the sudden stomach ach....glad we smsed :D

Duno why u bad mood today, and keep busy nowadays, but i hope its not cos u stopped loving me, its driving me crazy thinking that u will be gone....

ay called me today, i know yesterday was our anniversary...as in ex anniversary. She seems really upset for not giving a shit abt it, but wat am i suppose to do, some things are just over and cannot be the same anymore...

maple isn't fun anymore, i saw my eqs and asked myeslf, wtf i spend 3k on it only to realised...it doesn't matter if ur pro or noob, maple is still boring...

Just 1 week

Long time since i blog again. I hope today will be fine. Basically for those who duno i got into this CCA called racing kayak. So...last week i got kicked out by coach cos he say i sian sian during training though i was like chionging all the way...he just says no fire in the eye.

So just as i got over it, i received an sms saying coach wans me back to the team. I went back only to know that for me to get back into the team, i must GO CHURCH WITH HIM, AND BRING 3 PERSON IN THE TEAM ALONG, if not, I CANT GET BACK IN THE TEAM.

Everyone thinks its not right for him to do so but who dare voice out? Well...he says that the pastor will help change me...change to a better person. Is it wrong trying be a soloer? Why do i have to stick with the team all along even dinner? i have my own life and double training 7am to 12pm and 4.30pm to 7pm daily is ady taking most of my time away. KNOW WAT IS THE MEANING OF NO LIFE?! And i ady tried my best to please the rest of the team.

Furthermore, coach says there is low chance i can catch up with the rest due to so many training missed.

I wonder.....should i return or quit?

why i did that?!

Today was fine, went to work at 3pm, made appointments and recuitments.
Until at night i duno wats wrong with me, i just......
Forgot it, i dun wana talk abt it haiz...
Anyway, tmr will be pakour 101, woot!!! (should call it today since its alr 12.15am)